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Wow.... it has been so long...

I think I stopped using this around the end of 8th grade. I liked it alot though and I should use it again. I havn't written in ages either. My heart is totally containing itself and it's weird. I realized that i couldn't put my heart on paper anymore.... but I suppose its not working. I miss writing. this way I can set things for different things like I used to. I'm super sick and stressed out and I totally need something like this.
so, where have i been?
1)England!!!!!!!!!
2)reading HP, fanfics and Twilight and others
3)being broken and then fixing myself, scar tissue is stronger than innocent skin.
4)that was not a comment on cutting cause i haven't done that in ages.
5)new friends
6)letting old flames die
7)rekindling others, I'm in touch with Phoebe now!
8)I love Proud Theater!!!
10)In_My_Head

I'll update again soon!

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New year resolutions. because I'm boreddd

Resolutions:
- Get pretty legs.
- Make bailey happy
- Keep Ousia 
- Have moeny for Mexico and London
- Raise grades like waaay much
- lose 10 lbs by febuaryish/marchish
- be happy, healthy and wise

Happy holidays

Blue x-mas without you

Deck the hall with bows of holly

Here I am, Wishing everyone everywhere a heppy time in this not so cold dead of winter. the light gets brighter and the days get longer as we melt away from the sorrow that we were stuck in.

A new light.
Yeah, my sister still is better than me
yeah, I'm still getting bad grades
Yeah some big stuff still sucks
But, its those beautiful little things that brighten your day, and it just hurts if you think too much about the bad stuff.

Dear world,
I am sorry that I used to hate you. I appologize for almost giving up on you. I have an idea. Let us love one another. It will be lotsa fun. peace to all. 
much love,
Margaret B


And Its not too late to fly

ok.....

I can't find any black pants. So, I'll have to wear a skirt. grah.

FlameintheFlood: soooo
FlameintheFlood: these tall men
FlameintheFlood: in red uniforms
awesome49557: ok
FlameintheFlood: came to our house last night
FlameintheFlood: and tried to kill me
awesome49557: OMG!
FlameintheFlood: yeah
awesome49557: r u ok?
FlameintheFlood: but we called the police
FlameintheFlood: and its all better now
awesome49557: good
FlameintheFlood: lol
FlameintheFlood: ur so gulable
awesome49557: i was kidding!
awesome49557: :-(
FlameintheFlood: right
FlameintheFlood: lol
FlameintheFlood: well
awesome49557: lol
FlameintheFlood: its way true
FlameintheFlood: and they hated me
FlameintheFlood: because i have green eyes
awesome49557: uh huh
awesome49557: u do?
FlameintheFlood: they were totally greeneyesaphobic
FlameintheFlood: yup
awesome49557: idk that
FlameintheFlood: serious
FlameintheFlood: its not like i can help it if i have green eyes
awesome49557: yup
FlameintheFlood: but
FlameintheFlood: they said god hates all greeneyed ppl
FlameintheFlood: and that we shouldn't be allowed to get married
FlameintheFlood: cus then we'd have more greeneyed kids

peace out
Mono.
I can't go to dance and I'm gonna get fat and week and icky. even more than i already was.
Can't go to school. Gonna lose all the (can't spell precious((wait! is that how you spell it?(((YAY))) )) ((((omg lots of perenthasis)))) )

dang.
But I'm also sort of glad I have mono. I nead this time off from the evil world.

Poor Bailey without me or sam at school.
Because Sam was an idiot. I wuv him but I am seriously pissed off at him. The most selfish thing sumone can do. really. now he's locked up in a rubber room with no sharp objects. GOD! (wow I'm a filthy hypocrit ((more parenthasis!)) ) at least he didn't succeed. Then bailey would've died too. and Then Kaitlin would've attempted or sumthing. Then everyone would be even more pissed off at the world. And we'd kill ourselves off. And I would be stuck here. Alone. Realising that even though everyone was dead i couldn't kill myself because it'd be selfish. But nobody would care. cus they'd all be dead. chain reaction in the major. Our grade is doomed. Can you talk about pointless drama!?!?!?

But Bailey visited before she went to see sam at the hospitol. She gave me clemintines (cus I can't spell brought((DANG! I did it again!!!)) )
dang.

right.
So now that we alll know that the world as we know it is doomed forever (not nessasraily a bad thing (( the world as we know it sucks)) (((doom, thats mine and Bailey's word!!!))) )

wow.
I'm a loser.
And i miss Cia
Yes I just HAD to say that.
Because I'm a loser
I need people
No i don't
people make me sad
I like being alone
what?
I hate being alone
GARHHHH!ARARARARAHHH!
dang.

Leah is sick of me. She doesn't want me to go to Chicago for this dance thing.
Mom was mad at her.
I awoke to fighting.
At least there were no loud male voices fighting.
Those bite.

Another 1 bights the dust
and another one down
and another one down
and another one
bights the dust
cus I'm so gangsta

wow.
pointless ranmbling in super small font.
unber is an awesome word
but I'm to lazy to find out how to put the little dots over the u.
So I can't type theword
sadness eh?
ha. more pointless rambling.

I feel like an idiot
I am an idiot
and sam is in the hospitol
and cia is in mexico
and bailey is at school
and i'm at home
and leah is downstairs with indigo
indigo is in the backroom with her violin
her violin is making music
she's gotten really good
and sams in the hospitol
and cia is in mexico
and I'ma loser without a life

who wants to bet that nobody reads this?
that there are no comments whatsoever
The worst part, is nobody is gonna bet. because nobody is gonna read this.
how much ya wanna bet nobody will read this?
Simon has a lj
but he hates me
not ysp simopn
diff simon
great!!!
a life!!! how much does it cost???
to bad i'm saving my money for mexico

there.
bigger font
and still nobody is reading it
but thats ok
cus i'm not saying anything important
I'm just wating time
wasting away
who wants to bet I'll die.
I'm iminic.
or however you sp[ell it
I'm lacking iron
which means
i'm gonna die
yups
w/e

SOMEBODY IS READING THIS NOW!!!!
YAY!!
ok so as I was saying. i'm not saying anything important.
I'm just gonna shut up now

Does God Really Hate Us?

I was too scared to watch the news last night.
I was too scared to listen to the radio.
But I had to find out.
So scared.
And with reason.

It passed.
They both passed.
Marriage and Civil Union Ban.
Death Penalty

What has our world come to?

I cried this morning.
I cried again this afternoon.
I cried throughout the day.
I cried with disapointment.
I cried with visions of our future.
I cried for Wisconsin.
I cried along with other gay citizens.
I cried along with the family's of those in jail to die.
I cried along with couples that want the benifits of being married, but don't want to get married.

With each useless tear we've shed
I tell myself
We nead a revalution.
We nead freedom.
by god this is not over yet!



My world will not  be forced into such unfair and prejudice and greedy ways.
We cannot  let this happen!

Our future will not be ruined.

Oct. 21st, 2006

God its refreshing to be a bitch.
Grumpy-fish is over. but he will leave. Soon.

I babysat tonight. uber rick ppl. funnnn! they rockes my sockes!
ladida.
off to be in vent at mark mode!
love much.

Oct. 8th, 2006

don't worry.
those were just lyrics...
I'm great and happy(-: